Archive for January, 2010
Sitting with some Broken Social Scene as background music, trying to figure out what item to proceed with off my to-do list first and I’m sitting in my office like it’s the middle of the night instead of the middle of the day.
There’s one difference, however. I do considerably less work during the day than what I accomplish at night. And then I sit and wonder why that is. How can that be, actually? Shouldn’t you want to pound the items off that To-Do list so that tonight, when you have a billion fun things to do, you aren’t pondering what you’re not accomplishing? Most people would. Not me.
No, what I do is watch movie trailers being released in a not-so distant future. Case in point: The Good Guy a trailer I’ve watched three times because I loved the background music. And it’s prompted me to listen to BSS while I “work”.
Sometimes you just need a little inspiration.
Every morning, my alarm’s been going off at 5:45, sometimes even 5:40, depending on what class at the gym I don’t want to be late for starts. It’s a pretty brutal process for the first two minutes. The dreaded “how can it be time to get up already?” questioning and physical pain in dragging myself out of bed. The thing is, as soon as I get up, start washing my face and brushing my teeth, I feel fine, great even.
Today, when my alarm went off, I was so comfortable and warm, and relaxed that I decided to stay in bed for that extra hour and a half, thinking it’d be a perfect morning for a little extra shut up – screw spinning, I thought.
Flash-forward to 7:30, my new alarm time – I felt just as crappy, if not crappier. And this time, I didn’t become magically awake while washing my face and teeth. The rest of the morning goes on and I’m unable to keep my eyes open at work, I can’t concentrate and everything seems so depressive.
Thought for the day: apparently waking up ungodly hours of the morning to put your body through hell works out in the long run, so no more skipping.
This year will be a year that challenges more than my determination, dedication and persistence. It will be one that challenges my guts, guise and belief in myself. Personally, I think that’s more of a challenge than anything else but one that I’m entirely up for – mostly because I don’t have much choice.
Once January 4th hit, I was back on the work front. Controlling all aspects of my life I believe I can control – I’m on my way to figuring out the things in life that I can’t and will never be able to.
I’ll get there, completely, though. One day. And this year, will definitely be interesting. One for the books. Just watch.
